health is wealth...

this is the only time i can say that this saying really is true.

just recently, i lost one of my closest aunts to asthma. as per the doctors, she had the type that causes fatal attacks. its such a sad moment. i was there when it hapened along with 2 of her daughters, a cousin and her husband and my mom who is her sister. i can't really explain the feeling. during that moment, i thought i was in limbo or in a movie set where in the scene told me to comfort my 2 cousins. it was hard. i never thought i would feel such sadness.

up until now, i really can't say that my aunt is gone. when im at home, i always expect the phone to ring with her on the other line delivering out of this world questions like "May basura na ba?". i miss that.

but life has to go on and we have to be strong esp for our cousins.

now we continue and live as normally as possible. but i know within our silence, a longing lingers...
and that wont fade quickly...acceptance is the key...and we'll get there.

right now, im always trying to remind my mom to tkae care of her health. telling her not to tire herself.
as for myself, i have stoppped smoking for 8 months now and going strong. no puff, not a single one.
im proud of that. i wish that i can continue it forever...
although i need to start excercising. thats my next goal.

so whoever you are, reading this...take care of your health.
if youre reading this then i know you. and i dont want to feel sadness such as that in the near future.