CaRiNG aBouT D NuMBeRS...
why is it too hard to make the numbers go down...
sometimes its so hard to do what you have to do in order to prevent your numbers from increasing. even if you put your whole mind into it, it just isn't enough. the will power it needs to help you bring it down is just too big and too hard to muster.
but why do some people have it easy? they normally have lesser numbers than i have and yet they can satisfy themselves a whole lot more without adding a unit or two.
as for me, if i lose just a little, tinny, winny inch of control, it easily shows. does one really have to look at his numbers to know if someone may be able to appreciate him? why do we always have to look at this aspect of ourselves to make sure we can be liked? is this really the basis of admiration? or even just simple acceptance? or do we have to simply accept the fact and move on. these are my numbers and i should accept it. i have to move forward and be myself.
do i still try to make the numbers go down? do i need to after accepting the fact that this is how I am?
i know i have been rambling about this for quite some time. its a phase of mine that shows up one moment and disappears the next.
just bear with me and i'll be okay.
just BEAR with me...hahaha!
what the heck...
sometimes its so hard to do what you have to do in order to prevent your numbers from increasing. even if you put your whole mind into it, it just isn't enough. the will power it needs to help you bring it down is just too big and too hard to muster.
but why do some people have it easy? they normally have lesser numbers than i have and yet they can satisfy themselves a whole lot more without adding a unit or two.
as for me, if i lose just a little, tinny, winny inch of control, it easily shows. does one really have to look at his numbers to know if someone may be able to appreciate him? why do we always have to look at this aspect of ourselves to make sure we can be liked? is this really the basis of admiration? or even just simple acceptance? or do we have to simply accept the fact and move on. these are my numbers and i should accept it. i have to move forward and be myself.
do i still try to make the numbers go down? do i need to after accepting the fact that this is how I am?
i know i have been rambling about this for quite some time. its a phase of mine that shows up one moment and disappears the next.
just bear with me and i'll be okay.
just BEAR with me...hahaha!
what the heck...
posted by GaNTz at
10/31/2006 11:15:00 AM
4 Comments:
awww... i love and accept the person you are, whatever your number may be. :D ayon nga kay aaliyah, age ain't nothing but a number. hehehe
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Tina, at October 31, 2006 2:12 PM
di ba Numbers yung TV show na pinapanood natin kina tina habang kumakain ng cake nila? hehehe. miss na kita gantz... pero ang akin lang eh, healthy tayong lahat para magkikita kita pa rin tayo sa susunod na mga taon (yuck health professional).
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Catrina Stoffele, at October 31, 2006 9:23 PM
hi bro, i just have to make a comment..i think what's going on with you right now runs in the family. What do you think?..kidding aside, i can empathize..it's simply human nature to judge and criticize others(negative/positive). Always remember that you (literally) hold the key to how you make your life and how you want to live it but keep in mind to live ur life to the fullest. It does not matter what others may think of you even though they may be your friends because they will always have something to say. Rather think of what really matters, which are, for me, what you think of yourself, that you do what you do coz it's right & u think it's right, its for ur benefit & happiness. never ever be driven to please others..it's a hard path of life that we all go through..i've learned to accept this..what keeps me going are those that really matters to me..if u can't accept me, so what..it only means you truly not care for me, ur not needed in my life, wat u say is nothing to me..real people will stay with you no matter what and be supportive. Just learn to know who they really are and what they really mean when they say something, it can also be because they truly care for u & not just saying things to criticize/judge u..I guess that is why i can count my friends easily or u can say all the people i love bec i only count the real ones....like wenever mom & i would say something to you, good or bad, it's because we love you and they are just reminders for us to pass on to u so u can live a good and better life...inspite of that, you know that we accept who you are and we love you..I've always always been proud of you and our family, no matter what esp. how one looks like (if it's about that)...If given the chance to live my life again, I would never trade the chance of having such great, intelligent, generous, loving, caring & wonderful brothers such as you, mike and christian..you are all my treasure...extrinsic values or numbers should not be the main basis for confirming if real appreciation is being given..if you truly know urself, what ur worth is & its the same as to how the people that really matters think of u..then yala ! with them, i think it means here in dubai something like the hell! or what do i care! in a way..hehe..i hope that with this, i can help alleviate whatever pain there is to experience having people around you that cares only about numbers! I experienced it and still am! Miss yah and take care!
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Anonymous, at November 01, 2006 9:14 AM
eh kung ganun mga comments...sniff sniff!!!
miss ko na kayong lahat!
Ate thanks for the advice. tama ka , yala!
Aloy and Tina, thanks for being such true friends who don't count any numbers at all.
Miss ya all!
mwah!
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GaNTz, at November 05, 2006 8:12 AM
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